Nerves

I have never felt how I feel right now. I am stuck in between two worlds: the one I'm living in now and the one I'm waiting to join (for 27 months).

I have applied and been nominated to serve in the Peace Corps with a prospective leave date of late June 2009 to either Central or South America. I have sent in my medical and dental reviews and I am just ready and waiting for what will come next.

So what do I do in the meantime? Well, I am continuing my job teaching Spanish to 7th graders in a public middle school in Huntsville, AL. I am so torn because every day I deepen relationships here and love my job more and more, but I know that in a few short months, I will be leaving all of this to start something brand new. This brings about such mixed emotions. I am nervous and excited all the same. I feel so lonely and disconnected already because I guess I am preparing myself, my emotions to leave all that I know and love here. How do you prepare yourself for this?

I honestly don't know, nor can I describe how I feel right now and the millions of thoughts that run through my head on a daily basis.

I guess this is a test of patience as I wait to see what is next: where I will go and when I will do so.....